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I wish I could take you with me.
I really really want to take you with me.
How it depresses me that you won't come.

It's what I want more than anything, if I begged enough you'd come. I know you would. But in your heart deep down inside I know you don't want to. I wish you'd be with me through thick and thin. I don't want to be alone when I do this. What if I change? What if you won't want me any more and I become a different person? It scares me sometimes.

Ah i dont know what I'm going to do anymore.

I'm so scared. The future scares me so much.

What will I do? Why am I doing it? Why am I going through with this?

I already know what the future holds and I cannot stop it.

I will be alone. We will drift apart.

It saddens me so.