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He's going crazy sometimes. He's always worrying something happened to her, and asks her constantly if she's doing okay. Sometimes he peers at her wrists and worries more; other times he makes her swear that she's fine and is isn't lying. Is she lying? Is she telling me the truth? He wonders as she tells him for the 8th time that she's perfectly okay. And she's been more quiet recently, watching him quietly with wistful eyes that say- what? What is she trying to tell him? Is she keeping secrets? Is she holding things in, keeping the burden to herself? He loves so desperately, he doesn't know what he would do if something were to happen to her. He wants to be with her always and curses himself when he cannot rescue her, let alone protect her from her dire circumstances. 

Last night, that night she laughs as he stares at her perfect wrists, "You really think I would do that?"

"I don't know what you would do." he answers.

"I would never do that."

He plays with her hands and kisses her on the forehead, determined to stay by her side. 


She's going  crazy sometimes. She feels as if too much is happening all at once; she can't keep track of anything. Sometimes she stares at things she shouldn't and thinks about disappearing. Right off the face of the Earth, yes, like a magic trick. And then she catches him watching again. Asking her over and over and over again. Like a good girl she says the same thing over and over and over again. How can she make him worry over nothing again? She hates making him nervous like this. She loves him to death, would do anything to make sure he's happy. But there is one thing she is incapable of, she cannot feign happiness for his sake. All she can do is remain quiet, but even that drives him crazy. Why does he worry so much? She wants to smack him, leave him, make him miserable for once. 

But she knows if she does that her whole life will fall apart and then she really will dissappear. She needs him like oxygen. She'll die without him by her side.

"You shouldn't worry so much" She scolds him.

"I have a reason to worry, I never know what's going to happen to you. Start thinking about yourself for a change" He replies, annoyed.

"You do not."

"I do too. You know exactly what I'm talking about."

And then she goes quiet because he is right and she is wrong.

And then he goes quiet because he has upset her again.

Damn.