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So lots of things happen in very short periods of time:

A puppy followed me on a walk home. (I was so tempted to keep it!)

I tore up the front yard. (I'm remodling it!)

I finally finished unpacking.

I work way too much. ;_;

I play so much Left 4 Dead my head hurts.

I went grocery shopping by myself for me for the first time.

I think I lost my Dsi. ;_;

My mom texts me sometimes to tell me she misses me. I read them and put the phone back down but never respond. I think it bothers her that I don't really keep close contact. When I get text messages saying that it's been awhile since I visited, I stop by. (maybe)

Sometimes I feel bad that I'm happier now. My boyfriend tells me he sees a difference in my atittude and it pleases him that I finally have some distance from what was formally suffocating me.

I like being on my own. Now that I got what I've been dreaming of since a child I can start focusing on bigger things and sorting out my priorities. I have a lot of tough challenges ahead of me, but I'm sure I can handle it.

First thing's first though, I need to completely be stable first. I still feel kinda wobbly on my feet and dizzy with this new found freedom I have now. I feel like a newborn colt trying to walk for the firs time.

I hate trying to answer the big questions in life. I hate having to make decisions. It's something I have a huge difficulty with because I'm so indecisive. And the reason is because I think too much. What if the choices I make are the wrong ones? I'm carefully treading forward weighing each decision so that it doesn't bring me down in the future.

Like, what do I want out of my future?

Where do I see myself heading from now? Surely not WalMart. I'm an ambitious girl who wants bigger things from life, and yet I don't know where I want to go with it. I'm twenty years old and I still can't answer the question people get when they're in kindergarden:

What do you want to be when you grow up?

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So it's been awhile since I've written anything even remotely note worthy. XD

It's been awhile since I wrote anything at ALL.

Much better.

Let's see, fastforward the last couple of months.

I got a job.

It's at WalMart.

Go me!

Not really...

I moved out.

Yeah I know. XD

No really. I did.

I hit a year with my boyfriend.

I turned twenty.

My brother turned fifteen.

I bought my mom a bird for mothers day.

Starting today I'm always going to be broke.

Yeah...I think that covers all of it.

Yep!

So last night was my first night in my new home. Three hundred a month, first of every month. Sitting right next to me is my first payment I am waiting to hand over. My feet hurt from standing in cute shoes all morning at WalMart as a new cashier. I just might like remodel better. (Which is what I was before a cashier) Oh well, no worries, as long as no one comes up with my with some weird check or money transfers I should be good. I pretty much got the hang of it so it's all good.

My room is kinda cute. My corner of the room anyway. The other half is eletronics begging to be used by me. Which I am...hehehe I gave into using the computer and I'm downloading FLYFF now.

I also have a Final in Narcotics later on today at six. Eeek! Should be pretty easy actually. MY boyfriend didn't write his paper though, I just know it. Idiot.

I'm working on being a clean responsible young lady who is nice and considarate. I have very high demands of the young adult me and one of them is maturity and sophisication. Okay...make that two. Hahahahha.

Well, I have to go now cause it's two o'clock and my boyfriend just got here.

Bye bye for now.